Since I'm trying to concentrate on one project, and I'd really love to have it done, done, done!
So I did.
It was interesting.
Last year I did July camp for the first time, so I am somewhat familiar with the way the Camp site works. (Haha, got you there, that's an accidental pun!)
Anyway, the real NaNo site is more fun, with the Plot Doctoring forums my favorite part, but having the "cabin mates" chat to talk in can be fun, too. My cabin mates so far aren't very talkative, so that's kind of sad. (I may have to resort to a different cabin...)
So, I got some great days of really productive sprints in early in the month, and was almost nearing the halfway point on my wordcount.
"If I'm doing so well at this," I thought to myself, "Shouldn't I try to do more? The faster this project is done the happier several people in my life will be, and that includes me. So... why not up the word count to 30K? After all, a measly extra 10k on top of the pile shouldn't be too hard, right?"
So, I did.
And now I've hit some days where I'm not getting the scenes rolling like they used to, and I'm kind of losing momentum, and I'm thinking "What was I thinking?!!!"
But, I think I can still do it... it just won't be easy sailing. I'm on track to accomplish it, as the site stats say:
- "At This Rate You Will Finish On
- April 30, 2014"
At 12k on the 12th, (today) that means I'm theoretically doing okay. But I know that I did more than 1k per day early in the month, which means that my actual production has downshifted... and this spells a bad forecast for the upcoming weeks.
To add to my problems, I have the ridiculous tendency to desperately want to finish early. To the degree that if I simply finish on time I will feel somewhat like a failure; only if I finish early will I have actually won.
And the degree of actually enjoying the win will directly correspond to how many days early I finish.
Is this crazy? (Are you afraid to answer that honestly?)
Does anybody else feel like this? It's actually pretty miserable, 'cause it totally steals the joy out of most accomplishments. (At least timed ones.) And I don't like to think of myself as going through life all joy-less, etc. but I'm not sure how to alter this tendency, or ever from whence it springs.
Anyway, let me know what you think and make me feel less lonely, will you please? :-)